time.

brand new once said "one week is a long time. one month is a long time. one year is a long time. god damn time takes its damn time."

but brand new also wrote daisy. so not everything they say is gospel.

time is an interesting phenomenon and people react to it in odd ways. people are always wishing for a different day. "i can't wait till summer!" is a common one. but take that right now. in the bottom half of fall. if you can't wait till summer and you are constantly looking forward to it, you are just letting your life cruise by. you aren't living for anything in the time frame you are in, you are constantly looking forward to the future instead of looking down at your feet in the day you are in. i mean, who knows, maybe something great might happen today? doubtful. but who knows?

i'm the exact opposite. i live in the past. always saying "man that was the best" or "i wish i could relive this day with that person." where is that getting me besides down the long road of sad and lonely? cause if you spend all your time looking back at great memories you once had, all you're doing is keeping yourself attached to things that are no longer attainable. i mean, you can try and relive them, but without the perfect circumstances it's damn near impossible to do so.

so what's the moral of the story? i hope it isn't something cliche like "live for the moment" but maybe it is? maybe we should be happy with the past but not dwell on it. maybe we should look forward to what's coming next but not rush it. maybe we should just try our damnedest to be happy. and i know i'm one to talk...i'm a miserable prat 75% of the time. but hey.


i'll leave you with some excerpts from david mcwane's "the gypsy mile"

The Boy, A Pretty Girl, and The Devil
"now laugh and tell him to go away."
whispered the Devil in the pretty girl's ear.
And she did.
"she has changed so much."
thought the boy as he walked back to his desk.

52 Cents
i dont always give the homeless man change.
Maybe that's how God works.

currently listening to: i dont want to let you go -- weezer