nice guys finish last.

who said theres no truth to cliches?

there really is. in every sense of the statement, nice guys finish last and assholes get ahead. need proof?

the biggest asshole i know treats his girlfriend like shit but she does everything she can to stay with him. meanwhile this asshole treats me like shit whenever he can when ive never done anything to warrant it. hes one of those self proclaimed tough guys, he thinks he's an all american bad ass and thinks he can do whatever he want, so he only treats the people he wants nice and shits on everyone else. but this guy has a girl whos begging to stay with him.

another example. a different girl, one whos very close to my heart, dated an asshole for probably a good 6 months. this guy, at one point prior to them dating, told her he hoped she was pregnant after hearing a rumor about me and her that was completely made up. the guy was a piece of shit, he told her she couldnt tlak to me, just smoked pot all day, was a bro and a tooll by all definition, yet she loved the kid and got mad if i criticized him and would rather be with him than even talk to me.

same girl, different guy, a guy who was a friend of mine, but by every definition a jerk. the guy openly wanted one thing out of girls, all he wanted was to fuck them. i knew him when he was a virgin, i heard about his first time, i heard how he talked to girls, and i hated everything about his approach to girls. he graduates school, starts smoking cigarettes, does every drug he can get his hand on, pretends to be a hobo of all things for attention, doesnt do anything as far as a higher education goes, but somehow manages to take advantage of this girl one night. nice guys finish last, assholes get ahead.

not that im saying thats getting ahead, but its certainly not finishing last. her response was "i wish i didnt happen and i dont like to think about it, im sure he feels the same way." wrong. this is the kind of guy who has notches on his built. yes another cliche but thats how it is.

now ive always tried to be there for this girl and we've had both the best relationship you can have and the worst, but at the moment she hasnt talked to me in a month. but these assholes can get whatever they want out of her.

its sickening

so now comes a story from today. im driving to drop off a letter in regards to my parents going to court tomorrow. im going through the construction on route 5 and i see in the lane going back towards the city a cop has someone pulled over. i know the cop is going to be there on my way back, i gotta make sure i slow down. on my way back, im trying to maintain a legal speed but a guy is right on my ass and hteres people in the other lane going at...what would be the flow of traffic. i cant really slow down. never the less, once i get to where the detour starts, i start slowing down regardless of the asshole tailgating me. but theres the cop. sticks his finger out at me, pulls me over. the guy behind me breaks his fuckin ass off, so the cop cant tell hes tailgating. so again, the asshole gets away fine.

its bullshit the way life works sometimes. it really is. i wish i understood why.

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while im ranting, ive had some negative feedback to some of what ive wrote on here. not a lot of people have read it or told me their thoughts on what theyve read and im fine that, but one person in particular i dont even know who they are. i could go on and on and clarify what i meant in the posts that they criticize but im not going to, many of their complaints are in response to things they took or read the wrong way. i try not to ramble too much cause id get lost in my thoughts and these posts would be days long if i did and were to get EXACTLY what i meant across. so i try my best. im not going to say to stop with the feedback, you're more than welcome ot say what you want, and if you dont want me to ever know who you are either, thats fine. im just glad you're taking the time to read and maybe we can open up a dialogue on whats really fucking wrong with this world

thanks for reading.
jc.