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this picture was taken today, it amazes me that this tree still has this many leaves on it. they were able to withstand 100" of snow fall this winter, ridiculously high winds as recent as yesterday, and the havoc of asshole college students. it had to suck for the leaves. watching all the neighbor trees lose theirs, while at the same time they were drying up, loosing color, and crinkling to all hell, loosing all their use.

it had to get old after a while, seeing everyone they know dying. i mean, i know 2 people who died in the past month and someone whos deathly ill, and that alone is awful. maybe leaves dont have feelings, and maybe i didnt know the 2 people all that well, but it still is an uneasy feeling. i mean tim payne used to sit with me at lunch back in junior high when i was an annoying little fuck who nobody could stand. and maybe in recent days he was the butt of jokes just for the sake of not having seen the kid in forever, but he shouldnt have had to get hit by a car walking home and i dont know how the guy who hit him could live with himself as he drove away. but either way, it sucks when people you know die, especially when they're your age, or in the tree's situation, your neighbors